Thursday, January 23, 2014

A Friend in Need…



I have not written blog for more than six months. Last time I had written in June last year. Many things have happened during these six months, both in national and international scenes, and in personal lives also. The reason for which I could not write is I had troubles with my eyes and I had to go for operation. After my second operation of the left eye I had a deep abrasion on the cornea after the wound of the operation is almost healed. That gave me excruciating pain and it took much time to be normal. I was unable to read and write. The prolonged illness had completely disorganized me. I am yet to reorganize myself, though I have fully recovered. However, I am reorganizing myself and have written a story, the first one after my recovery, which Katha is publishing in its special February issue.

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During recuperating period after operation and healing of the abrasion I had to be confined to my room. I could not read or write. I am in the habit of reading and I read even when I commute to office sitting in the bus. Not being able to read is really a great punishment for me. In the novel The Outsider, Albert Camus has defined punishment as when someone wants something to do but he is prevented from doing. The main character of the novel has committed a murder and has been jailed and in the jail, he wants to smoke, but is not permitted. He considers this as punishment. Later he is used to non-smoking and then considers the punishment ceases to be punishment, as he no longer wants to smoke. But I cannot think of a life without books.

During illness, when one is confined to his room and not allowed to move, read or write, he is in need of the company of friends, at least, for gossiping and passing time. My friends are busy with their work and in their own ways. Pradeep and Gopa visited me once after my first operation and so also Dipankar and Sadasiv. Dipankar loaded in my computer good and my favourite songs, both of films and classical, which was helpful in passing time. Swayamprava had visited me after the second operation and spent a few hours with me and my family. But most of the time I had to listen music or sleep  to kill the oppressive loneliness. If I slept during the day, sleep eluded me in the night. The days were long, and the nights became longer.

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Two writers I like met unnatural and untimely death recently. Jagdish Mohanty’s story, Album was published when I was doing my graduation. Since then, during my college and university days, I used to purchase the magazine if it had published Jagdish’s story. Incidentally I was reading a story from his book, Prema Aprema published by Timepass when my friend Subash Sadangi telephoned me to inform his death. He was at 61.The other writer, Suresh Balbantray died at 59. He was to retire from service after 8-9 months. Suresh had been a great friend. One day I had been to his office on an official work. I found paintings drawn by him displayed in his office room. In course of discussion I casually asked him why he had stopped writing stories or poems. He replied, I cannot write a story better than you nor I can write poems better than Senapati Pradyumna Keshari. Why should I write? A person with a large heart and a broad mind could speak like this to a younger writer like me. Whenever in the evening I went to the old bus stand, the writers' corner I looked for him and he was there to greet with a smile. I know, henceforth I shall not find him, his warmth and smile in the old bus stand though I shall look for him whenever I shall go, and the vacuum will remain forever. 

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The old students of Alaka Mahavidyalay where I was a lecturer before I joined Finance Service had organized a get together on 12th January and invited me to attend. Last year and the year before they had also invited me, but I had not attended. I was there a lecturer exactly for two years one month and six days. But Manisha says, her friends and my old students always ask and enquire about me. Among my students, she is only  one who has been in touch with me till today. This time I had also declined, but Prasanna, once a lecturer there and now a senior officer of Cooperative Service insisted me on accompanying him.

I could recognize two, Imam and Kalam, and faintly remember the third, Bhattacharya of more than a hundred old students gathered there. After all, twenty five years have passed since I left the college.  I told them about a chance meeting of an old student twenty years back when I was working in Satyabadi and while going to my village. I met him in a canteen at the Cuttack bus stand. I failed to recognize him, but he recognized and treated me with a hearty breakfast, a pack of cigarettes of my brand which he had remembered (then I was smoking) and a free ticket in his bus up to the bus stop nearest my village. I had written a story on the incident which was published in the Sunday literary page of Sambad under the caption Chhatra (student). This story is in my collection of short stories, aampakha lokamane(the people around us).
I enjoyed the day and decided to attend next time if they organize and remember me.

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